I want to be strong, but I don't want to be strong by forcing myself to be. I want to understand everything around me, understand myself, understand what I want, find something I really want in life, learn through my mistakes, go through the tough times.

This is the tough time I'm going through now, and I'm currently weak, vulnerable and what not. I'm not going to tell myself "STAY STRONG", take everything off my mind and run away from unhappiness just to be happy.

Please do not worry.